Living with aphasia and epilepsy has reminded me of a very important lesson in life. That lesson is that: “We are all different. One individual is not necessarily better than another. He or she may just be different.” What am I talking about? Four incidents in my life have reinforced this lesson. You might say that I have been a slower learner.
The first incident was an automobile accident more than thirty years ago. I was stopped waiting to make a left-hand turn and I was rear-ended by a car doing forty miles per hour. Due to the whiplash caused by the accident, the back of my head struck the head rest, breaking it off. In doing so, I suffered a serious concussion that permanently affected my sense of taste. Ever since that accident, everything has tasted salty. For more than thirty years, I have not had to salt any food at the table. For a short time after the accident, I had a memory of what food “actually tasted like.” After thirty years, the memory of “true taste” has faded away. What should have this taught me about the difference in people? We observe the world through our senses. My sense of taste is different from yours. Because they are different, that doesn’t make one any better than the other.
The final three incidents are all related to just one episode. A blood vessel in a benign tumor in my brain burst, giving the appearance of a stroke and leaving me with many of the same after effects as those of a stroke. The first of those effects is that my physical ability to get around has been diminished. Prior to this episode, I was considered athletic. Until my knees gave out a couple of years ago, I had played fairly competitive basketball and softball for more than fifty years. Over the years, I had four different college basketball coaches invite me to come in and teach their teams how to set picks. Today I need a cane to walk about outside our house. If I am going to walk any distance, I need a stroller with a seat in case I must sit down. Today I have a handicap parking hang-tag to permit us to park in those special parking spots. Was the athletic me any better than the challenged me? I am still me. I am just different.
A second result of either the burst blood vessel filling my cranial cavity with blood or the subsequent removal of the benign tumor is a mild case of aphasia. Aphasia literally means “a loss of words.” It is a communication disorder which affects my ability to use or understand written or oral language. It hasn’t affected my mental capacities, just my ability to use words in a timely fashion. I can still analyze situations as well as I did before. I just can’t respond to them as quickly as I previously did. I know what I want to say, I just can’t find the right words to express it quickly. I need more time to write articles like this, but I can still write. Was the old me better? I am still me, I am just different.
Also as a result of this episode, I had four grand-mal seizures and am now labeled epileptic. Although I am on anti-seizure medication, my wife and I must be on guard for the signs of another seizure. Since not enough time has elapse since my last large seizure, my driving privileges have been taken away from me. Does not being able to drive make me less of a person? I don’t think so now. Prior to this happening to me, I might have thought so.
Before these incidents and after effects, I know I thought differently. I now see why we need to do everything we can to “even out the playing field” in school and work situations for people with challenges. I am more sympathetic to students who need extra time on tests and assignments. They are not lesser persons. All of their capabilities have not necessarily been affected. They can be just as smart. They may just be a little slower. They may even see or taste things in a new and different way that can lend a new perspective to a problem and lead to a new and different solution. My continual salty taste has had one advantage. Coffee that tastes bitter to other people actually tastes okay to me.
For people who see differences as signs of being less of a person, I am not recommending that we need to beat them up one-side of their head and down the other until they change their mind, even though that’s what it took for me.
Communication
Living with Aphasia: Teaching Old Dogs New Tricks
Living with Aphasia: Teaching Old Dogs New Tricks
By Baylis
You can’t teach old dogs new tricks. I have heard this saying for many, many years. (Does that make me an old dog?) Over the years, I have observed the difficulty in retraining dogs that have become acclimated to behaving in certain ways. You never heard this saying about cats. I don’t think cats were ever mentioned in the same way because cats are very hard to train in the first place. They train themselves. However, once a cat has settled into a routine, it is extremely difficult to break that routine. We had a cat that we started feeding first thing in the morning. After that, if we didn’t get up when the sun would first rise, this cat would come into our bedroom and gently remind us that it was his feeding time. He would put his face right next to our faces and start rubbing against us or purring.
I have now had first-hand experience with this adage. For many years prior to the hemorrhage in the blood vessel in the tumor on my brain, I was not the best filer. My filing system has been called clutter. I would have eight to ten piles of papers or journals all around my office. There did not appear to be any rhyme or reason to the piles. However, I was renowned for my memory. I would easily have a dozen jobs in the air at any one time. When someone would come into my office to talk about something, I could inevitably go to the correct pile and within a minute or two, find the document that we needed to discuss. People were amazed that I knew where it was. I can’t do that anymore, although I still have eight to ten piles of papers all around my office at home. However, when I get an idea about how I can update an essay or article that I’m working on, I can’t find the documents. Since I can’t use my former filing system anymore and knowing what it was probably won’t help other people now, I will let you in on my secret of filing prior to the episode. As I said I had a good memory. But I was not remembering exactly where a particular document was. What I doing was constructing those piles according to the day that I worked on the particular project under question. All I had to do was remember what was the last day I had worked on the project. I could go to that pile and find the needed documents.
Since the episode I have tried to put all the documents that I work on in manila file folders and label the file folder. The difficulty that I will have to teach myself to overcome is to now put the file folder away in some semblance of order other than by date. I spent several days this past week alphabetically filing all the file folders that accumulated in my office, first according to author and second by title. It’s amazing what I have found. There were several duplicate files, that if I had been following this procedure all the time, I wouldn’t have had to create. What’s also true, but should not be amazing, is there are some things that I know I worked on but are now lost.
The second lesson that I have learned through this process is that one needs to keep one’s computer files in order also. There are documents I know that I have created but they are nowhere to be found on my computer. I have looked at all the files alphabetically and chronologically, and the documents under question are nowhere to be found. To try to remedy this situation, I first set up a spreadsheet listing all the files I created. The spreadsheet had entries that could be sorted by name of file, author, source (if it was from a journal or website), and date. As I created new files, I entered the information related to that file on the bottom of a front page and copied that front page to various pages that I then sorted by title, author source and date. I know this type of problem and process is more suited to data bases. Why did I use a spreadsheet and not a data base? I have always been more comfortable setting up spreadsheets than data bases. The old dog is barking again. I have learned the hard way this is more of a data base problem than a spreadsheet problem. The last two times I sorted the pages of the spreadsheet I didn’t make sure that I was sorting the whole page, and I found I was mixing up file titles with the wrong source or date. This week I believe that I will have to step out and try two new tricks. The first is to create sub-files on my computer and file documents in an appropriate sub-file. The second is to create a data base for my files. Next week I will report on my success or failure.
In our adult Sunday school class this past week we were discussing Abraham and someone asked the question: “Why do we seem to learn more from failures than successes?” Another individual brought up the example of Thomas Edison. After more than 100 attempts to construct a working light bulb, someone asked him if he was discouraged. I think his response can help us. He is reported to have answered the question by saying, “No, I am not discouraged. I now know 100 ways that won’t work. I won’t use any of them again and I can try something else.”
As I live with my aphasia and memory problems, I am collecting a whole set of practices that I now know I won’t have to try again. I won’t have to make those mistakes again. I have also learned the secret to teaching old dogs new tricks. It is actually quite simple. KEEP AT IT; DON’T GIVE INTO IMPULSES OR WHIMS. The minute you let the old dog revert to his old behavioral patterns, you have to essentially start over again with the training. With that in mind, I decided to try practicing some of the new filing techniques this week. How is it going? The best I can say is that it is going, but not as well as I had hoped. I must admit I have had to resolve to start over twice and I must also admit that I failed in setting up a working data base. Old habits (Old tricks) are hard to shake off. What actually are old habits? They are engraved patterns of behavior, etched into the synaptic paths of our brain. To construct a new habit, we must break down and eliminate as much as possible the old habits. What we know from brain research is that unless the paths are completely eliminated by damage to the brain, those paths are still there. We can make new dominant paths but the old paths are still there, and the individual can easily revert to those paths. It’s similar to putting a new roof on a house, you really should remove the old shingles before you put the new shingles on. If you don’t, the new shingles will not always as effective as they should be and you will have to replace them much sooner than you normally would. If you have read my first blog on living with aphasia, it’s all about the story of perfect practice making perfect. The amateur practices until he gets it right once. But that’s not enough. Chances are, when the next opportunity to make that play or perform that number occurs he’ll get wrong again. The professional practices until he can’t do it wrong. The muscles are locked into particular movements and the individual just does them naturally.
I have just discovered a new (new to me) site for aphasia patients and caregivers. It is a blog entitled Aphasia Corner. It can be found at http://aphasiacorner.com/blog/category/aphasia-corner.
I invite you to look them up. Someone involved Aphasia Corner has my type of humor. QUESTION: What is aphasia? ANSWER: It is the weapon on Star Trek used to blow up enemies. You don’t ever want to lose your sense of humor. Even in the toughest of times, a laugh can be medicine for the soul.
Principles of Leadership Part I
This is the first installment of a series of three posts of principles of leadership that I have gleaned from forty years in administration in Christian higher education. Although they come from that setting, many, if not most are applicable to any management situation.This post concerns one’s own personal traits and characteristics. Post Two concerns how one deals with people. Post three will deal handling processes within the organization.
Personal Traits and Characteristics
- Trust God Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will direct your paths. Proverbs 3: 5-6 (New Living Translation)
- Be dependable If you say you are going to do something, do it. Be a person of your word.
- Tell the truth Scripture exhorts us to “Tell the truth in love.” In addition to being the right thing to do, there are pragmatic reasons to do so. I recall one dean who said, “Always tell the truth. It’s easier to remember what you have said.”
- Love learning People need to feel a passion to know…to know oneself, to know the world around us. Knowing brings understanding and a sense of fulfillment.
- Work hard; play hard; rest well Be diligent in your work ethic; be conscientious in your recreation; take time for yourself.
- Persuade, rather than coerce If a case can’t be won by logical, rational arguments, is it worth winning?
- Know your own limitations Every one has limitations. It saves you and others a great deal of time and energy if you know what your own limitations are and you operate within them.
- Listen well The most overlooked communications skill is listening. People expect you to “hear” what they are saying. If they believe that you have really listened to them, they will respect your decisions more, even if they don’t agree with them.
- Read Develop the habit of reading. Determine the best journals related to disciple and job. Read those religiously. Keep at least three books on hand that can be read in those spare moments…one related to spiritual development; one related to job; one just for fun.
- Keep a record of your decisions Always keep a paper trail, especially of all decisions, promises and warnings
- Respond to people Respond to people in a reasonable time frame in an appropriate manner, letter, email, phone or personal visit.
- Know your enemies. First, you need to know who your enemies are. Second, you need to know why they are opposing you. Third, you need to know their battle plans and modus operandi.
- Understand the power and limitations of technology If you know want technology can do and what it can’t do, and you know where it can help you achieve your ends, use technology appropriately.
- Be a scholar Scholarship is the art and science of creating, organizing and disseminating knowledge. As an academic, the academic administrator must be committed to scholarship.
- Be engaged The essence of engagement is to know and be known. Within the academic realm, individuals need to be engaged with their disciplines, with their colleagues, with students, with their community and with their churches
- Pray Pray without ceasing. Pray with thanksgiving. Pray fervently
Principles of Leadership Part II
Principles of Leadership Part 2: Dealing with People
- Be hospitable. Have respect for all people; be hospital to everyone; demand an aura of hospitality everywhere within the institution. Make everyone, both members of the organization and guests, feel welcome.
- Value people The most important resource in any organization is people. They need to know that you appreciate them, not for what they do or can do, but who they are.
- Reward people Individuals appreciate psychological and emotional rewards. However, it is equally important to reward people materially, at least as much as the organization is able. People need to believe that you are trying to reward them materially.
- Invest in people If people are the most important resource of an organization, it is not enough to value them as persons and pay them appropriately, you must show them that they are important by challenging them to better performance and providing the necessary support in terms of training, facilities, equipment and help.
- Empower people I believe the best decision-making strategy for an organization is to push decisions down to the lowest appropriate level within the organization. Give people a job and responsibilities, and let them do the job.
- Respond to people appropriately and in a timely manner Respond to people in a reasonable time frame in an appropriate manner, letter, email, phone or personal visit. Know when to say “No.” Also remember that “Because I said so.” is not a sufficient answer to the question “Why?” Be prepared to freely share your reasoning behind the response to any request Learn to use the answer “I will think about it.” responsibly. If you don’t say “No” many will hear that answer as a “Yes.”
- Hire the best person for a job opening The “A-level leader” will hire “A-level” people. The “B-level” leader will hire B-level or C-level people. A good subordinate will improve your organization and eventually make you look good. Don’t worry about that individual challenging you for your job. If they are a better choice and could do a better job than you, then that’s so much better for your organization. A poor subordinate will sabotage your organization and make you look bad.
- Develop your successor It has always been my intent and general practice to begin on the very first day of a job to help someone prepare him or herself to take over my job. I have mentored more than a dozen people who have gone on to serve in the position I held at my institution after I had left or at another institution after they left.
- Don’t shove a square peg into a round hole It is physically possible to put a square peg into a round hole, but only if the square peg is smaller than the hole. Try to match the skills and attributes of the individual with the demands of the position. Don’t over-match or under-match.
- Know and appreciate your students. Education is meeting students where they are and helping them to get to where they want to be and ought to be. If where they want to be is not where they ought to be, the first job of the institution is to help them see where they ought to be. This means that you must study your students and help your faculty members understand and appreciate their students.
Principles of Leadership Part III
This is the third installment of a series of posts of principles of leadership that I have gleaned from forty years in administration in Christian higher education. Although they gone from that setting, many, if not most are applicable to any management situation. This post deals with handling processes within the organization.Post One dealt with personal traits and characteristics. Post Two was about dealing with people.
- Approach problems systemically; solve them systematically Making changes in one area of a system will have effects on other areas of the system. Look at the big picture. Do not go just for a quick fix. Work through all the ramifications of your actions. Be prepared for the next steps.
- Think and plan strategically Strategic thinking and planning begin with the organization’s mission and vision. It proceeds through internal and external scans and an analysis of the differences between current positioning and desired future positioning. The organization must then determine the fundamental issues it has to address to achieve its mission and vision, and then develop goals, action plans and tactics to address those issues. Periodic review of the goals, action plans and tactics are essential to an ongoing institutional assessment of where it is and where it wants to be.
- Develop a culture of evidence A culture of evidence is a way of life and thought that pervades an organization with a set of values and principles, a collective knowledge, and habitual patterns of actions that uses information and data as evidence to answer questions of importance to the organization. In the ideal organization, a culture of evidence will demonstrate the degree or extent to which the organization possesses those attributes and characteristics of high-quality programs and processes.
- Share knowledge and information Today’s organizations can no longer effectively be managed by the few who think and the many that do what they are told. Organizations need a higher level of knowledge and skill among all who participate in them.
- Live within your budget An organization must operate within its means. To do this requires a balancing of the needs and available resources, along with an accurate accounting of income and expenses. I believe that budgeting should begin with needs and expenses followed by an analysis of income. I also believe that once the budget is set, the bottom line is fixed, but individual items are guidelines and within the framework of that bottom line budget directors should have as the autonomy to make changes in individual items if necessary.
- Take the long-term view The long-term success and viability of a project is more important than short-term successes. The long-term success and viability of an organization is more important than the short-term successes of projects. The long-term success of the organization and individual projects may need the building of foundations and superstructure that can take time to construct.
- Expect excellence; ensure excellence We should encourage our customers to expect excellence from us. It is our job to ensure excellence in what we deliver. The process of providing excellence includes selecting the right people and assigning them the right tasks, setting high standards and motivating them continually and holding them accountable for the outcome.
- Maintain the proper balance between innovation and practicality There are times when it is important to “think out-of-the-box.” There are times when it is important to remember and follow tradition. It is most important to know when to choose what.
- Form follows function This phrase is typically used in an architectural sense. It definitely must be followed in designing space. However, I believe that it has a much broader application. We can look at processes and systems just as we look at buildings. We should first look at what we intend for them to do, and then design them accordingly.
- Delegate intelligently; follow-up consistently An individual can’t do everything. A supervisor must set a pattern of delegating both responsibility and authority to appropriate staff. The supervisor should also set up expectations of oversight and stick with those expectations. The follow-up should be scheduled and as consistent as possible from one project to the next, and one staff member to the next.
- Celebrate success People need to feel good. People need to celebrate appropriately. As successes come, set a pattern of celebrating those successes and the people who made them possible.
- Learn from failures Nobody is perfect. You will make mistakes; others will make mistakes. Take those mistakes and use them to become better. Analyze what went wrong. Determine what could be done to avoid these problems in the future.
- Leave the organization better than you found it Each decision should be made with the intent of improving the organization. The work of each day should be done with the goal of continuous improvement. Work each day as if it is your last chance to make a difference.
If you are interested in learning more about leadership
and how it effects organizations, I highly recommend the
work of Dr. Jim Laub. Check out his organization OLA
and his website www.ola.org
Living in a French Impressionistic Painting
Living in a French Impressionistic Painting
By Baylis
The past week has been bumpy. No full-blown seizures, however, a number of unusual things have been occurred. One morning I woke up at 7:00 AM. I got up and turned on my computer and wrote a response to a newspaper article that had appeared in paper a couple of days earlier. When I finished writing the response, it was 8:00 AM. I was a little tired and since my wife was still sleeping, I went back to bed and fell asleep. Sometime later I woke up feeling very well-rested and when I looked at the clock it was 5:25 AM. As I stirred my wife asked why I was getting up so early and I told her about the apparent time differential. She said that I must have been dreaming. I told her if I was dreaming I was sleep writing because I had a decently written essay on my computer responding to a newspaper article. When I checked my computer the essay was there.
At least three times in the past week, I have “awakened” from a nap or a zoning time-out and found myself living in a French impressionistic painting. What do I mean? Most everything further than 20 feet away had no definition to its edges. I could distinguish what it was, but it was not sharp. For example, this past Sunday morning on our drive to church, looking out my van window I felt like I was looking at impressionistic painting. I could tell that barns were barns but I could not be sure where the barns stopped and the outbuildings began. They all ran together. After we got to church and I looked at the flowers on the platform in church, I could not tell when one flower stopped and another started, but I could tell that they were flowers. However, in our church we use a video projector with the words to the songs that we are singing. It was strange; I could read the words clearly. They seemed to be sharply defined. But the background pictures were fuzzy, just like an impressionistic painting. After church, we went home. I ate lunch and turned on a football game. We don’t have an HD TV, but when the camera was on the players and the game, everything was sharp. When it panned across the crowd, the impressionistic images returned. I feel asleep “watching” the game. When I awoke from my nap, having missed the entire second quarter of the game, the impressionistic images were gone. Everything had returned to normal and all images were distinct and sharp. When we went back to the evening service at church, I could distinguish clearly the barns and outbuildings on the way to the church. I could also see the flowers on the platform distinctly. I could also tell that they were standing in water in clear glass bottles that I had completely missed earlier in the day.
Are these mini-seizures or the side effects of medication? To really determine what’s going on, my neurologist wants to catch me during one of these episodes, so I am now scheduled to spend a week in a local neurological-science center for constant monitoring. After a week of being a lab rat I may have some more stories to tell. Stay tuned in for those stories.